The truth about my binge eating | Getting Back On Track Series, Chapter 2

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At the beginning of February, I made a pledge to change my relationship with food over the course of 2016.

For once I made no plans to lose ten pounds or to build my glutes to bikini model proportions.

Instead, I chose to spend February quietly observing, with as little judgment as possible, my eating habits.

And what I discovered actually shocked me:

I am an emotional binge eater

Which I have never seen myself as before, but I  am. I am the Queen of Dairy rolling around in clotted cream.

Most days I will eat somewhere between 2000 and 3000 calories composed mostly of dairy and refined carbohydrates. The days when I am sad or stressed, I’m at 3000 calories and beyond.

One day included: chocolate for breakfast, biscuits for a mid-morning snack, cheese toasty for lunch, two scones complete with clotted cream and jam, an apple (winning), hot chocolate topped with whipped cream and marshmallows, more biscuits, vegetarian curry for dinner, and cake for dessert.

Much of the time I feel nauseous and bloated, and I don’t like what I see in the mirror.

I also noted that the days when I had food prepped, my binging was kept to a minimum.

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What are you living your life by and is it serving you? | Who or what is your “Higher Power”?

Photo Credit: Zain Bhatti // Unsplash

Photo Credit: Zain Bhatti // Unsplash

Now, I use the term ‘higher power’ because I’m not necessarily talking about God or any kind of religious concept – for many people their higher power is spiritual, but for others it might well not be.

I’m talking about that ‘Thing’ or idea that you live your life by and aspire to. It’s what brings you sanity on the days when you just can’t quite think straight. It’s what helps you to determine the path of your life and the choices that you make. It could be a god; it could be the universe; it could be Society; it could be a philosophy; it could be a particular set of values or principles; it could be food and calories; it could be humankind; it could be drugs or alcohol; it could be sex and sexual validation.

The concept of having a higher power outside of religion occurred to me after I spoke to a lady who had just gotten out of an abusive relationship:

“I made him my higher power,” she told me, shaking her head. “My whole life revolved around him and how I could make him happy. If I ever had a decision to make, I would go by his opinion. If he told me I was rubbish, I believed him. If he told me I was beautiful, I believed him. I didn’t have God – I had my boyfriend.”

This got me a-thinking about what I my higher power is and also what it is for other people in my life.

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New Year’s Resolution Inspiration | Getting your New Year’s Resolutions off the ground

Photo Credit: Daria Nepriakhina

Photo Credit: Daria Nepriakhina

Many people are getting into the swing of 2016, whilst some of us are, er, slightly lagging behind.

Either way, all we know is that we’ve eaten at least three Terry’s chocolate oranges, and devoured an entire box of After Eights and downed a bottle of Baileys within the hour; the gyms are crowded and uninviting; and kale is still stiff and unappetising.

Some people are screaming “New Year, New Me!”, but let us politely punch those people in the face and get on with more practical matters such as negotiating who gets the last Matchstick.

Having said all that, a small dose of motivation and inspiration never hurt anyone, so I thought that I would take a look around for some useful tips, tricks and web links to help get you in the right frame of mind for 2016.

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My New Year’s Resolutions for 2016 – Fitness, Mental Health & Travel

Photo credit: Ivanna Salgado

Photo credit: Ivanna Salgado

I’m not really one for resolutions. I used to love them as a teenager, but my long-standing journalling only seems to prove that I have a habit of not following through on my resolutions (not biting my nails has been number 1 on the list for the last 15 years to no avail). I usually get too caught up on broader goals, such as travelling and academic exams, to keep up with my vague resolutions ( “get fit and healthy” being the classic!).

That being said, coming home after years of travelling can leave anyone in something of an emotional slump, and I don’t want 2016 to seem small and ordinary in comparison to the excitement of years 2013, 14 and 15.

Instead of just looking at the big picture, I want to use this time I have of relative peace and stability to work on some of my smaller and more personal goals:

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7 things we can all learn from the movie ‘The Intern’

Image from original trailer for review purposes

Image from original trailer for review purposes

A cross between the 90s movie ‘Picture Perfect’ (starring Jennifer Aniston) and the tear-jerking cartoon ‘Up’, I was pleasantly surprised to discover that the ‘The Intern’ was more than your standard rom-com.

In fact, the movie covers a variety of very real issues such as sexism in the workplace and the glass ceiling, the balance between work and home life, marriage roles, and the pressures of being an entrepreneur.

The plot

Robert de Niro plays the endearing 70 year old widower, Ben Whittaker, who joins a Senior Internship Programme for an upcoming online fashion store in a bid to fill the lonely days of his retirement. Much to his surprise, Ben is assigned to the company’s high-strung creator and boss, Jules Ostin (Anne Hathaway).

Jules is initially skeptical of Ben, but it’s not long before a friendship blossoms on a basis of mutual respect.

However, it quickly becomes apparent that whilst Jules is incredibly successful, she is struggling to cope with the rapid growth of her company. Moreover, with a stay-at-home husband who gave up his high flying career to support her dreams, and a young (and adorable!) daughter in need of attention, Jules finds it almost impossible to keep her home life happy.

A heart-warming and inspiring comedy, this is one movie that every working girl needs to watch.

I couldn’t help but be inspired by the movie and its two leading characters, and the awesome career lessons that we can learn from both of them, so I thought I would write 7 things we can all take away from ‘The Intern’:

[Warning: Contains spoilers!]

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